Reflection

Sometimes life is about reflection, and that reflection helps us grow.

The other day someone asked a question that has been asked of me several times over the past few months. The question goes something like,

“Aren’t you excited? You’re getting married!”

The expected response is some elated giggle to cross my lips and for glee to spew forth. But the truth is I’m not excited; I’m happy.

I’m happy, and for my friends, I think they understand. Marrying Mountain Man isn’t about the excitement of one day that is the synthesis of 8 months of planning. Don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to my wedding day, but more importantly, I am looking forward to spending time with friends and family while standing next to a man who makes me genuinely happy deep into my soul.

Happiness: it is something that many have all the time. In fact, the feeling is never lost on them. And while I have been happy at various times in my life mostly I have been wandering from country to country, moment to moment, from deployment to deployment, career to career. Sometimes searching, sometimes not, sometimes pondering, and at other times lost. All the while knowing, that I have met great people who have been in my life, their touch molding me and setting me on my path to continue wandering, happiness wasn't always in the mix.

I'm now happy on a level I never thought I would experience. Mountain man doesn’t “make me” happy. I have had to find my own inner happiness. However, being with him is that other piece, that last stretch that pushes you to the top of the hill you have worked hard to climb. He is simply him, but to me he is amazing. I never knew you could love someone so simply yet so strongly. And yet, here I am in love and happy. I am deeply, passionately, patiently, fervently, sweetly and un-regrettably happy.

I don’t think I can stop wandering, even though I have set some roots back down in the Land of Enchantment. And those years leading up to this moment in time have taught me that all who wander are not lost after all. So for now, I will continue wandering. Yet this time, I will wander hand in hand with Mountain Man.

Policy and Politics for this Nurse Practitioner

I had an “ah-ha” moment today, here are my thoughts:

I served in the United States Army,  completing tours in Iraq and Afghanistan.

I currently serve my community in various ways, to include Cuidando Los Ninos (CLNKids.org) and American Women Veterans (http://americanwomenveterans.org).  Both are two organizations that I love on a soul level.

I think it is time to serve on another level, to have the positive impact on my community and the nation I am proud to be a citizen of.

That being said I have decided that for my birthday instead of spending money on material objects or things that won’t make me happy, I signed up to take a short 2 day course called “Ready to Run”.  I am not ready to put up signs declaring my candidacy just yet.  But, I have decided to ask for more mentorship from my friends and take an active role in my education of policy and politics.

I know I should outline my own political views but really I am still confused as to what I subscribe to exactly. I don’t think I belong to a specific party. I vote for issues and policies that help the community help themselves and grow. I don’t agree in handouts, but agree that those willing to put effort and work into life should be encouraged and helped.  My hope is that my friends understand and support me in this new journey. (P.S. we are all more than just anything, we are who we are).

Here is more information about the course I am taking: http://shri.unm.edu/readytorun.html

Research shows that women make government more transparent, inclusive and accessible, but too few women serve. In 2012, only 17% of US Congress was female, and women held only 27.7% of state legislative seats in New Mexico.

Ready to Run NM seeks to address the underrepresentation of women in public office in the state. A training program will be held in April 2013 over one-and –a-half days. Through an innovative curriculum that incorporates the political culture of the state, the program will present state and local campaign experts to highlight the specifics of running for public office. The program seeks to demystify the process of running for elected office, encourage more women to mount campaigns, and introduce them to elected and appointed leaders, campaign consultants, and party officials in the state to whom they can turn as they get ready to run.

Ready to Run™ program attendees walk away with...

“How to” instructions on running for office

Fundraising and media skills

Real-world advice and best practices from experts

Strategies for positioning yourself for public leadership

Inspiration to launch a campaign

A better understanding of party politics

Internet strategies for political campaigns

You can make a difference. Attend the Ready to Run New Mexico conference on April 12 and 13, 2013.

Please see details below.

Friday, April 12, 2013

2:00 PM to 4:00 PM - "Miss Representation, " a documentary by Jennifer Siebel Newsom that premiered at the 2011 Sundance Film Festival and aired on OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network, will be shown at the Student Union Building, Luminaria Room. The film explores how the media's misrepresentation of women has led to the under representation of women in positions of power and influence. The film is sponsored by Political Science Graduate Student Association (GSA).

5:00 PM - Registration opens at the MCM Elegante Hotel, Atrium Room

6:00 PM - Keynote Address and Welcome Dinner.

Former Congresswoman Heather Wilson will deliver the Keynote Address.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Speakers include: State Senator Lisa Torraco; State Representative Jane Powdrell-Culbert; State Representative Georgene Louis; Mary Herrera, Former Secretary of State and many more.

Santa Ana A&B Conference Rooms, Student Union Building, UNM Main Campus

8:00 – 8:30 AM             Registration and Breakfast

8:30 - 9:45 AM             Morning Plenary:

Welcome: Dr. Christine Sierra, Director, Southwest Hispanic Research Institute & Professor of Political Science, UNM

9:45 - 10:00 AM           Break

10:00 – 11:30 AM         Breakout Session 1

Track 1 – (I’m ready) – Panel:

Launching Your Campaign

This session provides an overview of the key elements of a campaign; including assessing and establishing oneself as a candidate, developing a campaign plan, structuring a campaign organization, fundraising, Internet strategies and voter contact.

Track 2 – (I’m not ready yet) – Panel:

Introduction to New Mexico Politics and Public Life

This session, designed for those who are not ready to run, offers an overview of public life, leveraging community leadership for political leadership, types of offices to consider, and balancing competing priorities of a political career and family life.

11:30 – 11:45 PM          Break

11:45 – 2:15 PM           Luncheon Plenary

2:15 – 2:30 PM             Break

2:30 – 4:00 PM             Breakout Session 2

Track 1 – (I’m ready) – Panel:

Delivering Your Message: Platforms, Interviews and Public Relations

This session will provide a more in-depth look at how to clearly deliver your message and your political platform. You will learn both how to formulate your message and how to deliver it effectively to voters.

Track 2 – (I’m not ready yet) – Panel:

Navigating New Mexico Networks: Parties and Organizations

This session will highlight the power dynamics of party organizations, building relationships within parties and interest groups, and gaining party support. Here you will meet with party and interest group representatives and will be given a chance to network with political leaders in New Mexico.

4:15 – 5:30 PM           Closing Plenary: Strategies for Success

Why Judge My Book By My Cover

Here is a link to my blog at the White House  http://www.whitehouse.gov/champions/blog?page=1

 You can also read it below. It was an amazing experience. I will blog soon about the other Award winners and amazing Women Veterans I met last week.

I was a U.S. Army Nurse Corps officer and trauma nurse. I loved and valued the times I was able to care for seriously wounded soldiers, and remember vividly the lives my team and I saved in Afghanistan. I also conducted presence patrols in and around the city of Ghazni, Afghanistan. Situated on a plateau in the central region of Afghanistan, Ghazni has a population of about 140,000 people and a long history of military invasions.

On one patrol, I was the figure of intrigue. A small tribe of local school girls approached me and giggled as I patrolled the area. Their eyes ranged in color from deep blue to light green and seemed large, hidden behind their head scarfs. They were fascinated by my appearance. I was female. My brown hair was tucked and braided under my kevlar helmet. I wore boots and had two weapons. Although I was able to smile at them briefly, I knew that my job was to help my fellow soldiers and scan for potential threats while patrolling the province.

With the interpreter at my side, the girls followed us for hours asking questions such as what my patch meant, had I gone to school, for how long, was I married, did I have children? I was probably an odd spectacle in their life. Yet I hoped with every answer I gave, that they too would be encouraged to go to college, become women leaders, and maybe even be nurses.

When I left the Army and transitioned to my new life as a veteran, I took those experiences and promised myself that I would continue to pursue my personal tradition of service in my community. I became a board member, then vice chair, of Cuidando los Ninos (CLNKids.org). CLNkids is a non-profit dedicated to address the needs of homeless families and ending childhood homelessness in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I work with legislators and local community members to educate them on homelessness and its far reaching effects in the community to include health and educational disparities, the rise of violence and PTSD, and how to work together as a community to end homelessness.

In addition, I am currently the vice executive director of the national organization American Women Veterans. The core mission of American Women Veterans is advocacy on behalf of military women, veterans and their families. Through speaking engagements and interviews with various groups, I explain the role of military women, as well as advocating for veteran issues such as PTSD and women in combat on a national and state level.

I enjoy the mentorship that comes with working with this organization. Through this advocacy work, I am able to connect with other service women, including amazing women like Genevieve Chase, our executive director. Genevieve is full of thoughtful ideas, challenges, and goals, such as how to build our board of directors or how to become more involved with advocacy at various leadership conferences around the nation. These suggestions sometimes overwhelm me and at other times inspire me to accomplish more, such as when I helped with the New York City Veterans Day parade.

In November of 2012, I helped coordinate American Women Veterans participation in the New York City Veterans Day parade. I gathered over twenty women veterans from various cities across the country. Throughout the day we marched, passed out fliers, stickers, and mementos, and were greeted along the streets of New York by other women veterans lost in the crowd of smiling faces, searching for a glimpse of recognition that they too served in the military side-by-side with our brothers at arms.

Often women veterans go unrecognized in the general public. While male veterans often wear hats proclaiming their service, women have no badge or insignia to signify their service, but instead work to find a balance between career and home life, while finding a new identity as a veteran and civilian. At times their transition can be lonely.

Most women are not recognized as serving in the military, let alone serving in combat. This can also cause delays in treatment when going to the Veterans Administration. I once experienced the frustration of overhearing an older male at the VA hospital while waiting for a dental exam. He said, “look at this young girl, probably here for her free teeth cleaning after doing her four years.” I was angry initially: who was this man to judge me? I am a veteran just like him, having served in multiple deployments. Why judge my book by my cover?

During the Veterans Day Parade, I was able to chat with Vickie, a fellow American Women Veterans member and United States Navy Veteran. Vickie is very involved in her community and is one of the first women I ever met at American Women Veterans. Whenever I see her, she calls me “little one,” like an older sister would. She continues to volunteer in and around NYC and at the VA in Bay Bridge. She works in counseling and understands, as I do, the challenges women veterans encounter. She wears a US NAVY ball cap to events we attend together and I can tell that, in her own way, she tells the world “I am a veteran.” She continues to remind me why I work so hard to advocate for change.

If Genevieve, Vickie, and I do not speak out for women veterans, I sometimes wonder who will. They, as well as other mentors in my life, serve as my personal motivation to keep working and striving, and to be that voice and advocate for change. All in a day’s work for this veteran.

White House

Leaving Sunday for my trip :)

I'm so excited! I will post everything on the 19th. Remember, it's women's History Month. Here is a good website to check out:http://womenshistorymonth.gov/

Many mentors inspire me. Who inspires you?

March is Allergy and Asthma Month

March is Allergy and Asthma Month

Allergies and Asthma

Here is a recent article I wrote for my new job. Enjoy

The Ides of March are rapidly approaching and with them the dreaded allergy season. Even saying the words make my eyes start to water and images of my sneezing in rapid succession come to mind. Allergies also referred to as seasonal allergies, such as Hay Fever and Allergic Rhinitis occur at certain times of the year. Most are caused by pollens from trees, grasses or weeds. At times mold spores can grow and cause additional problems for those who suffer from allergies. Common allergens in Albuquerque include: Arroyo willow, black willow, box elder and ash-leaf maple, annual ragweed, biennial wormwood, coyote brush and Bermuda grass to name a few. Pollen counts change daily. My go to spot to review the daily pollen count is www.pollenlibrary.com.

Most people breath in allergens and have no problem or minor symptoms but as many as 20% of people in all age groups have allergic rhinitis. Symptoms can range from nasal itching, discharge, sneezing, sore throat, hoarse voice, and itchy red eyes all of which are not conducive to having a great day.

The first thing everyone is cautioned about is to avoid their specific allergen. However, short of wrapping yourself in a bubble, it is difficult to go about your daily life and enjoy the great outdoors and avoid allergens. My suggestion is to do a little detective work. Try to identify what is your specific trigger. Is it the pollens (trees, grass, ragweed, tumbleweed) and insects in your local area (house dust mites, cockroaches, or ladybugs)? Are there animal allergens (skin, fur, feathers, saliva) or even molds in your home you were unaware of?

Your primary care provider will work with you to help identify triggers and can often suggest one or more medications.  These can include nasal glucocorticoid sprays, and antihistamines.  Your provider can also work with you to help find the best treatment, taking into account not only your allergy symptoms and severity, but also keeping in mind any other preexisting conditions you have that may exacerbate your symptoms such as asthma.

If symptoms are severe or persist, patients can be referred to an allergy specialist for further testing to identify the specific agent or agents causing the allergens. Allergy Shots can also be helpful for a certain group of patients. Allergy shots are injections that can make you less likely to have allergy symptoms. They are generally made to order, for each patient’s allergen triggers. They contain tiny amounts of elements that trigger and your allergy(s). Allergy shots are most effective for allergies to:

• Pollen from trees, weeds, and grasses
• Mold spores in the outside air
• Tiny insects found in dust also known as dust mites
• Tiny Flakes also known as dander from the hair, skin or fur from dogs or cats
• And stings from bees; honey , yellow jackets, hornets, wasps and in some cases even fire ants

It is important to know that Allergy Shots are NOT used to treat allergies to Latex, Medications or Food.

For many people Allergies and Asthma go hand in hand. Asthma is a disease that attacks the bronchial tubes. These tubes are responsible for carrying air in and out of the lungs.  Irritants and allergens can trigger these spaces to become inflamed, spasm and produce mucus.  These irritants can cause the airways to be narrowed and result in difficulty moving air in and out and subsequently breathing more difficult. Common symptoms of asthma include:

• Frequent cough, especially at night
• Shortness of breath
• Wheezing

• Chest tightness, pain, or pressure

While not everyone with asthma has the same symptoms, it is important for patients to know their “triggers” and keep them to a minimum if possible.

Keep in mind early signs of an Asthma Attack:

• Losing your breath easily
• Shortness of breath
• Feeling very tired or weak when exercising, in addition to wheezing, coughing, or shortness of breath
• Decreases or changes in peak expiratory flow; a measurement of how fast air comes out of the lungs when you exhale forcefully
• Signs of a cold or other upper respiratory infections, or allergies
• Frequent cough, especially at night
• Difficulty sleeping

Mild asthma episodes will usually respond to use of a rescue inhaler. More severe symptoms, or episodes that last longer require immediate help and you should be treated in the nearest urgent care or emergency department. 

I hope everyone goes outside, reads some Shakespeare and enjoys the day.

2013 is a Great Year

It’s 6:35 am, and after a long week I should be hidden deep under my comforter sleeping, but I am awake and happy so I thought I would catch my friends up.

Last year after graduating and completing the dreaded “Boards” I settled into what I thought would be a perfect job, working in a family practice clinic. I originally thought that was the environment I wanted to be in. That initially seemed comfortable to me. My goal was to have my own panel of patients and grow with a mentor. Unfortunately my ideas may not have been the goal of the clinic.

But, we are ultimately responsible for the doors of opportunity we open and close in our lives. My friend Beau turned in my CV/Resume and as if serendipitously, I was officially offered a new challenge. And as one door closed another amazing door opened.

This week was my first week in my new job, working in a wellness clinic and urgent care setting. It’s funny (in my mind) how I am drawn back into the urgent care setting, keeping in line with my Army Emergency Medicine roots. The office is filled with various personalities, all very driven in their own ways, eager to teach and grow. It’s funny how your personal challenges in life can change. I had previously felt somehow stuck in my previous job decision, and even though my commute was less than 5 min, it felt long and dreadful. I would leave work happy to have small opportunities to see patients, eyes sore from completing other people’s labs and responsibilities, ultimately feeling out of place.

This week, however, is completely different. My commute is longer, but I no longer dread driving to work. I have new challenges each day, I have read more on uptodate , journals, and prescribing guidelines, and had the ability to present a few challenging cases to my peers who are genuinely interested in teaching. Even our “Provider” meeting was a collaboration of presenting cases and reviewing x-ray films (We have old school films and I LOVE IT!).

Each night, I have come home tired, even to the point to falling asleep at 7 and 8 pm. That fatigue is great, and I feel like I am getting my groove back.(Insert Michelle doing her goofy, white girl, I’m happy and I don’t care who is looking "groove"). The best feeling of all is seeing my patients smile, feel comforted and sometimes even laugh. My last patient of the day said “I haven’t laughed in 2 months, thank you”.

2013 seems to bring other blessings as well. My friend Kellie submitted me for an award with the Albuquerque Junior League http://www.jlabq.org. I had the opportunity to attend one of their meetings and meet interesting and motivating women. That in and of itself is truly inspiring, however, I am grateful to have friends like Kellie who motivate me to be the person I am. Mountain Man and I are doing great and are planning for great things this year. My family is doing well. My friends are amazing. And now at 7:00am, I am going to tackle my to-do list from this week I have neglected. Here we go…