The fear of suffering is worst than suffering itself (The Alchemist) Funny, but we fear many things in life. But, when we take action that fear can inspire us to do more. ♥

Sometimes you just need that solitary day to yourself for some inner reflection. Lately my plate has been so full that I have feared not accomplishing anything. But fear can be a funny thing. It can take hold of us and stop us from moving forward, or it can cause us to push farther and make plans for our next opportunities in life.

Last week was “The Faces of Homelessness” Donor Breakfast benefiting Cuidando Los Niños. I was anxious to make my guests feel comfortable and welcome, even fielding last minute invites form guests. I planned their seating arrangements and spent a few sleepless nights anxiously awaiting the breakfast event. Waking up early the morning of the event, I was ready and out the door eager to make sure everything was perfect. Fear of course stood next to me, waiting for me to get anxious and slip in with waited opportunity. I arrived, got the best gift ever (my name tag!) and found out that my planning was slightly lost as my seating arrangements were not perfect. I had a moment of impatient frustration: why not how I planned it? It took me only a moment to see that others had worked so hard, my need to perfection was seriously silly. I kicked fear in the shin and as it walked away from me I figured out that no matter what happened that morning, everything would work out.

The breakfast was wonderful, we had a articulate speaker Diana Sauceda and she kicked off our morning with style and grace. We heard life stories from two of our mothers, and an amazing video presentation about our children and families who work towards changing their homeless experience. My mom came and was able to see the organization I donate so much of my time for.  My friends all came to support Cuidando and that made me feel so proud of them. I didn’t see fear at the breakfast table; he must have decided to walk away.

I still have too many things on my plate. I do fear not getting everything accomplished: school work and case studies, clinical hours, and a very important Youth Creating Change Film Festival June 25^th, and of course some family events. I heard fear ringing my doorstep just now, ready to come hang out again, but I think I will use this time wisely and catch up on some projects to that I can hang out with my new friend: Wisdom 

Remember we are all more than JUST a nurse.